New Adventure

A friend and I are embarking on a new adventure. I will admit I am quite nervous, because it means performing in front of other people and by myself. This is an amazing experience for me, because while I am scared I need to face my fear head on. I am excited, because has to do with so much of empowerment as a female, but I will write more about it, because write now it is in the rough draft state, and I need to work on it, but for sure I got a stage name. What I want my followers to get from this. Don't let the fear control you, because if you do it will end up controlling your whole life, and where are you going to be if you let the fear take a hold of your life?

Old wounds resurface

I got somebody that I love very dearly go through a painful experience that I went through at one point in my life which is a miscarriage. I know how she is feeling right now, it feels like an abyss that you don't know how to get your way out of it. You have so many feelings running through you, especially when you had the illusion of expecting another child in your life, and for some reason it doesn't happen. I want to say to that person you are not alone and I love you, and while you and I have difference's of opinion my heart is with you in this very moment and always. I want you to always remember that Angel you lost as a beautiful memory and don't stay in the hurt and the pain, because it will consume you and surround yourself about the people that will give you the proper support. I love you with all my heart. I am also go to put something that I wrote in a Blog long time ago, about my little Angel that wasn't able to be born. If you don't want to talk about it at least write it out, and share with other people your experiences. I love you again. Here goes the Excerpt of one of my old blog that will stay with me always. "This is in dedication to my son John that is not with us. I know you weren;t given the chance to keep on growing, or the chance to take your first breath, so many first that you missed. I want you to always remember that I do carry you very deep in my heart, and I still remember you and I won't forget you. I wanted to see you grow and tell me mama, but we will see each other again. I LOVE U SWEETIE. MOMMY LOVES U..My sweet angel that is watching over us. I will not say goodbye to you or forget you, the only thing I can say while you were still here you made me the most happiest person in the world, and I will not remember you as a pain or a guilt, but as somebody that I loved with all my heart even with my own life I wanted you so very much, and your father as well. I just cry once in a while remembering you, but as one of those beautiful memories that I would have wished that it would have fruitified. Thank you for given me the time to feel you and know that you were there. I love you my son John Patrick Williams (RIP JAN 2004)."

Angie's Birthday

Angie invited me to brunch with her other friends as well as her husband. I felt good around all these people shall we say they all had good energy. Later, I was invited to take pictures of Angie while she was going to get ready for her 30th birthday party, which was a treat for me, because to take pictures is a real treat for me. So, thank you Angie for including me in your amazing day that meant so much to me.

Dance Performance

A couple of months ago, I stepped into a dance studio kind of nervous didn't know what I was going to expect, because most of the people that know me I don't like to try new stuff. I hit a certain point in my life that I needed to make a change, because I felt so depressed on the course my life wasn't moving the way I wanted it too, so I decided to do something out of my comfort zone and went into the dance studio to ask for the Sizemology class that I saw in the advertisement of the Metro Pulse. I was surprised with the warm welcome I was greeted, and I was so happy. Throughout, the days and the months my relationship with the instructor and some of the students moved from being a mere instructor or classmates relationship to an amazing friendship, and Anna which is my instructor as well as my friend had an amazing idea in making a dance troupe, and I became part of the dance troupe. One of our performances was in the dance studio where we all met, because it was the Gala Opening for the dance studio. I have to give thanks to the Dance Studio that allow me to go back to Dance with enthusiasm and to meet all this amazing women.

Researching History

I have to look back to the mirror of the past, because I needed to see what I needed to learn from those previous experiences, so in the present and in the future I don't make them again. Especially if those past experiences cost us immense pain that we carried on through the years. I didn't want to revisit the past, because I wanted to relive it, but learn from those experiences and make sure we don't make it again. Sometimes unintentionally we tend to make the same mistakes that we made in the past and then we ask ourselves why did this happen?, But when you revisit it you realize and see why. Once you revisit the past to get what you need to get out of it, just say to yourself I got what I wanted which is learn what not to do again, and move on. Close the book and see all the good things that came out of that not only the learning experience out of that, but also the good time spent in those moments, because we tend to keep on to the negative only. There also has to be good moments in those bad moments. Learn from the bad, and remember the good ones. What I want my bloggers to get from this post is while the past has had its bad moments you get something good out of it. The learning factor for not repeating the same negative moments and remembering the good ones.