Sometimes we have to reanalyze where did I lose my step of my health journey Im not merely where I was when I first start my weight loss journey, but I have still gain weight that is unacceptable to me 20 pounds is unacceptable, because I have it in my I have shown it time again that if you put your mind to it you are able to conquer anything. Just have to realize that my setback has to do with an emotional struggle that I go throyugh inside and I guess I'm not dealing with it the right way, because that emotional situation is kinda left unexpressed, because you think you are walking on egg shells around certain people in my life and I need to worry that I need to be the strong one, but sometimes when nobody is watching I cry of thinking of that emotional situation that is getting to my soul and forgetting my motivation of one I start in this healthy journey, that is why I believe I need to refocus on my goal and why I start and work on what work for me then and work on it, as well as my emotional well being and maybe share my feelings with somebody that is just there to listen to me. I haven't written in a while, because my family has gone through a rollercoaster of a emotion when it comes to a major lose in our life and not knowing how to deal with it and talk about it without walking on egg shells, I believe this is my first step in working on this problem I am having, and I hope this help people going through this type of emotional situation. You don't realize how somebody is important in your life until their gone, because we took those people for granted until they are no longer here. I hope she forgives me for not being the best daughter-in-law, and I know she loved us with all our imperfections. You are truly missed so many beautiful memories you are leaving behind, but always many first of stuff that we are still trying to deal with that. I thought I wouldn't feel that way since the lose of my mother, but it came back that feeling of feeling overwhelmed with so many of emotions.
