I have gained some weight back and that kind of saddens me, because my hard work I put in to it to get to the place I want to be. Just unexpected things happened in my life last year and this year that I having to find a way on processing it. First one I believe was out of anybody control, because you don't know when death is going to ring your doorbell, but the people that stay are the ones left suffering, because it was unexpected. Now this year dealing with a situation I should have dealt with it a different way, but to error is human, and I had to let go of certain things that at one point looked good but soured, and that saddens me. This pass couple of days have been bizarre I guess to say the less. I want to thank the people that love me regardless of anything and I don't need yes people either. I need people to tell me that yes you screwed up, but you had no ill well. Thank you for my kids for loving me regardless of my imperfections and try to put a smile on my face when they I needed the most. Thank you for my amazing husband for always being my rock when I think I am about to fall he is there to tell me that he is always going to be there for me regardless of anything. My best-friend Marisol for giving an ear and a shoulder to relate my story of sadness in my soul. This blog is not to make anybody feel guilty of anything. If I did you wrong Im sorry. At the same time Im thankful for the people that love me and support me without them I think I would just break apart. I just have to gather up that strength that I had to before when I start on this healthy journey and regain that strength back, and get out of this hump and see more of the good stuff going on in my life. It is easier to fall in the pitiful of despair, but I can not let myself quit on myself. Thank you to my support system.
