In this pass of couple of weeks the word,"Foundation," has come up so many times. I grew up a certain ways of viewing life and people. I am who I am for those experiences in my life, because it has made me in the person I am. I think if I hadn't gone through the stuff that I went through my life I won't be the person I am. My parents were not the model people in my life, because my sperm donor which I call him that, because he really didn't play a positive role in my life just brought negatives stuff into my life, and my mother I didn't know that well I just know of what people tell me about her, the only thing I know about my mother is that she let a man put a hand on her with any excuse and she would excuse his behavior and cover the bad stuff for him so let's say my early childhood wasn't the best to build a proper foundation due to my parents and my father's family the only thing that kept me sane were my grandparents that loved me and supported me and let me be a child, although they weren't the awesome example as well, because they tended to be overprotective among other stuff. I didn't have any example on how to be a mother, but I was never afraid to become a mother, because from the ages of 5-9 I was the one parenting my siblings. So, when I got pregnant at seventeen I was happy I was going to be a mother. I had to begin my parenting at an early age. A healthy foundation is enjoying the stages of your life, but I completely skipped my early childhood that I became an adult, but an adult with regulations. My foundation that I had before was like putting that face foundation to cover the blemishes, and open pores in your face so people have the illusion that everything is good when actuality that blemishes and open pores are there it is just an illusion created to make look fine. I got married to a good man that enjoys and loves who I am, but I even told him at one point I don't know who I am, because everybody put stuff in my head that now that I have all this freedom and no clouds coming in to make me lose sight,and not letting me see beyond those clouds. People knew what I needed to do in my life, people thought that they knew and judged me for what they thought about me, but after I got away from all that I was able to going beyond and putting on that illusionary foundation that just hid the surface, but there was no true foundation there. I have had my highs and my lows and from both things I have learned, I have learned from my husband, his family, and my children. I am building my own permanent foundation so no matter what happens that foundation remains firm. I don't have to impress anyone, I don't have to please everyone, the only opinion that matters for me is what I think of myself. It is the person I see in the mirror everyday and try to be a good person, good wife, a good daughter, and mother. I am done with the fake foundations we build, because when we realize about those foundations that are just an illusion we are lost and we need to restart and create one from the beginning but this time we have to make sure it is not like a house of card which will tumble and fall. Remember to build a good foundation we need patience, careful to detail, and know and understand that the job is done correctly.
