Goal met!!

Before

 After

People ask how did you reach your weight goal? Will there is various components to be able to reach my weight goal. First, I needed to change my eating habits, proportion control, and see what I am truly putting in my mouth and if it is  worth all the hard work I put in when I  working out. Second, I add physical activity in my life which before was here and there I did something that some what rose my heart rate. Physical activity I started slow, and I knew what I wanted to focus on when it came to physical activity I knew machines are not for me, but I like the group setting and I truly enjoy doing Zumba. I joined my nearest Y, and I started going to the morning Zumba classes, and later on I added evening Zumba classes, and then I would go to other Zumba classes taught by other instructors. I enjoy doing Zumba classes, but I wanted to try another group setting class, and I started going to another morning class that started before the Zumba class, and I fell in love with it as well. I love the workout, the environment, and primarily the people that go there, because it didn't feel like another gym it has more of the homey feel to it, and the environment is amazing.. I start to get to know my instructors at the Y, and they started to get to know me and the positive changes that they were seeing in me not only physically but confidence in myself that I never really quite had. Curiosity popped into my head and I went to the Zumba site and looked for training and I saw there was going to be a training close by and I spoke to my husband about it, and he thought it was a great idea that he decided to join me in this quest to learn how to become a Zumba Instructor. So, we signed up for it, but I was still kind of freaked out about it, because I am not the most confident of people in the world and Im extremely shy. So, I'm not one of those instructors that is going to be shouting. That even the people that know me say I can't see you as a Zumba Instructor your so quiet. I still went for it, because I was passionate of what I wanted to learn and Im going to put my all in it. I learned not every instructor is going to be the same we are all unique and we all come from different walks of life. In training we learn the basics of the dance moves, but we are the ones that add the flair to the dance. I'm truly appreciative of my journey to becoming healthier. It is heavy work, but at the end it is all worth it. The job doesn't end with me reaching my goal weight, but also maintaining, and not getting to comfortable with my workouts, because my body will get use to it that might start gaining, so I need to get fresh routines or change around my routine.

Stressing out= anxious eating

I have been in this awesome journey of becoming a more healthier me, but like every road there is always bumps. The bumps are truly not the problem it is how we deal with the bumps on the road. Either we complain and whine about it and eat more to subside that feeling we have at that moment, but then it will make us feel more guilt cause of what we just did it is an addictive behavior that either we as a person would want to remove out our lives. Or you can be the other person that sees the bumps with it and deals with it and learns from it and not to make the same mistake again. I have been pretty good with bumps in my journey, but I need to truly get my stress  under control because for me it produces anxiety and it doesn't help me in wanting to control my eating habits.. I need to find a method to control that negative part in controlling my stress. I should understand that I shouldn't let people pull me off my hinge. I might not agree with the people I love and respect, but I still haven't handled the part that if I am able to do it then I will do it, but don't guilt me into it.. Just because I say I can't or no doesn't mean I don't love you and also doesn't mean that your not important, but I need to do stuff to help me in my healthy journey. I have created myself this routine that  when I don't follow it gets stressful when I break off my routine. So, I gotta get my stress level under control..

Fear of Change

 

Those that know me know that I'm not a big fan of change. I am more of a safety  girl or I guess comfortable. I realize that you can not be in this little bubble, because your blocking opportunities, possibilities, limiting knowledge to come into your life, because of the fear of change. Something triggered that my brain was not approaching my life in the right course, because I was staying stagnant and I was suffocating myself without knowing and it was just increasing my unhappiness. I would just create this walls in my life that were not really there, but I put this wall up, because again terrified of change that I just stayed within those walls I build; but while I didn't want to change because I was comfortable, but at the same time I was unhappy thinking things were not going the way I want to go. The year and times passes and it takes one tragic event in your life to step outside yourself and realize that your the one suffocating yourself and not providing those essential nutrients to your body and soul to create and build your happiness. Happiness is not going to come knocking on your door, especially if your too afraid to open that door and let it come in. We have to be happy with ourselves, because if we are not we are just going to bring misery in our lives and to the people around us. The people around you see your unhappiness and they wish they can help you, but they really can not do anything about it especially if your unwilling to change. We need to accept responsibility of setting our walls to grow, because we are so afraid of change. I realized that one of my primary unhappiness was my weight, because I let it get out of control that I went to a point that I just didn't care anymore, but something tragic in my life had to happen to see do I want to live my life with regrets? Especially if I am the main cause of not being happy. I know I needed a change in my way of thinking and my way of viewing life in general. Your given this major gift which is to LIVE and ENJOY life and not dwell on stuff that happened years ago.. Enjoy the life that is a gift with the people that love you and fill your life with so much love and support. We sometimes we don't appreciate the people we have in our lives or we just altogether take them for grant it. We are the ones that put bondages in our eyes and not appreciate the life we are given and the people that have come into our lives to either be a blessing or a lesson, because even the people that have not provide anything good in our lives they have brought something to learn. How are we going to know what is good or not if we don't live cause again we are afraid of change or trying new things.. Put my lady Yoga pants, my socks, sneakers, and headband and joined my nearest y, and start going to the gym and so far the change is creating amazing outcomes it is making me happy with myself, and I see the happiness in my children, because they see me happy. I have also helped my husband with us changing our eating habits. So far I have lost 60pds and Im loving it, and Im even going to try to become a Zumba instructor that is my favorite  method of helping me on my journey to weight lose and also my Weight Watchers group have been amazing support in my change of a more healthy living. Don't get me wrong I enjoy the hot dogs, and cheeseburgers but I do it with moderation not going out of control with it, because Im getting to know better what I am consuming, instead of just mindless eating. Change is good especially if it is for the good. Don't be afraid of change, because if you let fear take over your will just stay and that bubble and never know where you could've gone and the knowledge and opportunities you could've gained just for stepping out of that bubble. Don't let it be to late, and think while your at the end of your life realize that you didn't do nothing for your existence.. Don't Live in Regreat. JUST LIVE LIFE. ENJOY THE CHANGE TO BE AFRAID OF IT KICK FEAR IN THE BUTT AND EMBRACE CHANGE..

Perception of Gender Roles

Your a woman you have to act this way, and you are a man so you have to act this way. If you don't act the way society say's your sex should act then your like an undesirable. The reason I writing this blog is because I have a eight year old son that he is being picked on at school by a classmate, because he is comfortable to say that he likes my Little Pony. This is just in a small scale, but there are other people suffering this and don't have anyone or anywhere to talk to, because of the belief system that girls should be this way and a boy a certain way, and pretty much if you act differently than your role in life pretty much your putting a target on yourself. I'm raising my son to be a man that loves life, respects women and be sensitive to their feelings. I'm raising him to be an individual and be comfortable in his own skin, but other people tell him to suppress his thoughts and not share his ideas, because then he is putting a target in his life. My son is not gay, but even if he was it is no reason for someone to pick on him. He is very much likes girls and respects them more than I have seen any other man that I have seen or met in my life besides my husband. When did pink became a girl color?? This kinda of a narrow society in the beliefs that girls should be this and a boy should be that, and colors go to a corresponding sex... Am I wrong in telling my son to be who he is even if he likes certain stuff that is not very masculine like other have stated to him while teasing him for liking certain stuff?? I'm proud of the little boy that I'm raising and the man he will become.I let my son have a baby doll when he was a little boy, and some of my family members thought what is wrong with me to have him play with dolls, and I said I'm trying to teach him that the parenting doesn't only lay on the mother but also on the father.I was raised in a culture that women do the cooking, clean,having the children, taking care of the kids. The men are suppose to provide the money to the house, wait for his wife to serve him. I believe parenting involves both people that help create this new life.