Value

My husband is in surgery right now, because he fractured his elbow and he needed the surgery, because casting it would have not worked for him, so they opted for surgery for his elbow fracture. I will post as soon as I can images of his X-ray images and himself as soon as I have a chance. Every surgery is important even though some are more severe than others, but they are all just as important, because even people with minor surgeries put their lives in the hand of a surgeon and the probabilities of going either way are like a flip of a coin. We always aim for the good outcome, but we the people that wait in the waiting room are anxious for so many reasons. The person we love is going to be surrounded by strange people that the person we love, their lives is in their hands, and we have the concern and hope that everything is going to be coming out positive. These is reiterating my previous blog, that we have to express our feelings to the one's we love, because at one point they are here and they next they are not. This month of July I have to say it has been kind of trying for me, because two important men in my life have had to go through surgery both for different reasons. I always get anxious when I see anybody I love in pain it breaks my heart, and sometimes I wish it was me experiencing their pain so they wouldn't have to go through it. Everything has its purpose for being, so I shouldn't question why things happen. What I want my followers to get out of this blog is love to your fullest and don't have any restrains, because when you are wanting to express all those emotions it might be too late.

Bumps in the road

When things happen they come together don't they, but throughout this whole ordeal I have remained positive and keeping myself strong, so I keep the ones around me fine. Although believe it is kind of hard at times to always keep that sense that everything is fine, there are times I just want to break down and cry. First, my dad got sick and I had to take him to the hospital it ended up being he needed to have his gallbladder removed and they did and I did stayed in the hospital with him for almost a week in the most uncomfortable sit ever, but it was well worth it, because I know he was happy having me there and I was happy to make sure he was fine. Didn't sleep much in those days I was in the hospital, and on Friday I got into a small fender bender and I felt so stupid, because I really didn't see the car until I heard the thump in the back, and yesterday I had to take my husband to the hospital, because he tripped cutting the yard and shattered one of his bone in his left arm, and I all wanted to do is cry, because I felt all his pain and then they had to do X-rays on him and that was so painful hearing him cry in pain, because they need to position his arm, and now there is a high probability he will need to surgery in that arm. I feel so out of control right now, that I don't know how I can remain standing up without crying somewhere. I need to remain strong for the people that I love. This blog is more for my venting out so many stuff that I got stuck in my throat.

Birthday Party

I had an awesome time at my Birthday party sharing it with amazing friends that mean the world to me. I want to thank all those ladies that came to my birthday to make my day so special, I want to thank my hubby for organizing my birthday party and getting everyone together on my special day I love you sweetie thanks for all your hard work to make me feel so special on my birthday. Yes, Everybody this lady turned an amazing thirty years old. Every year that passes through my life has been some type of learning experience, and I think it is just going to be getting better, it is the first time after so many years I can say I am amazingly happy, because I am becoming the woman I always wanted to me. Thanks for all my supporters and thanks for all the haters, because it made me a stronger person. You like me great and if you don't it is great too, because I fly above all the haters. Thanks again to the amazing women in my life, because they have help me evolve in the person I am turning too and I am loving every minute it and the ride is awesome. It is a true awakening for me.

Concerns

This past two days I have been quite worried about somebody that I care for dearly, because it is hard to see those people you love be fragile, because we want to keep those people in our lives forever, although with a rational mind we know nobody lives forever, but when we feel emotionally we wish we had the people we love around us forever, but not even us are forever. It is just hard to see the people around you that you love sick in any way, and I have been going through that in the past three days, and there are moments where I want to cry, but I need to remain strong for that person so they don't fall apart. I feel at times I don't want to show tears, because I don't want to affect that person's state of mind, but I know I need a good cry to see the anxiety and concerns I have inside get washed away by the tears. Tears are really necessary for our body is releasing certain negative emotions, so right now I feel so surpressed of not expressing on the way I feel. I easily get irritated with people that try to make jokes while I don't feel like jokes, because I am concern right now of one of the person that is in my life that I really care about. At the same time I have to understand those people that want to make jokes, because that is their way of releasing their nerves, there is no perfect way of releasing your concerns and anxiety. Every person is different and releases it different, and I have to create more tolerance of people that show their nervousness and anxieties in a different way. So I do apologize to those people that I have gotten easily irritated with them. What I want my bloggers to get out of those blog is that we need to create more tolerance with each other, because where there is intolerance that is where conflict is built, because there is no tolerance of other people and that fact that everybody expresses their feelings differently. We are unique individuals and we need to communicate with each other in how we are feeling, because of the intolerance we have of people's expression of emotion creates confusion and misunderstandings and that is where we head into trouble. Welcome again for all my bloggers.

Vacation Reflection Part 2

I wrote in my previous blog in my experience spending two days with my amazing daughter sara, and after we spent two days together which I do recommend to all my followers you do with your child it is an amazing experience. We headed to my hometown of Miami to see some of my family members and pick up my grandparents since they wanted to come to TN. I got to see some of my siblings and it was great to see them, because I love them so much and it felt so good to see them. I got to see a friend and sara got to hang out with her daughter, and it was great to see that friend. Although, I really don't miss Miami in itself, because my pace has changed and I have become accustomed to the pace that TN has and I love it, because it is not a constant headache over there it is a constant headache even the driving there is a constant headache the congestion OMG!! That is why when I got home I wanted to kiss it so much, because I missed it so much and the amazing women that I have become friends with, and I also missed my routine of the way I do stuff, but I know you sometimes I need to get away from the routine, but this type of vacation made me realize that I really love where I live and I have to be more appreciative of where I live, because I really love it here the pace is different as well as the people. I love the amazing friends I have made in this state.

Vacation Reflection

I got a chance to spend two days in the beach with my daughter Sara, and it was an amazing time, because we got to spend some girl time with each other, and we got to talk to each other and pretty much express what we felt inside and it was a true awakening for me to see of what an amazing daughter I have. Our children are suppose to learn from us, but we also get to learn from our children, and really in this trip I got to learn so much from my daughter. It almost brought tears to my eyes when my daughter was expressing her feelings, because finally she opened up with me and let me know how she felt about certain situations, because my daughter tends to be kind of reserved with her feelings and she ended up to open up with me, and she talked to me quite maturely and this is only my eleven year old child, but that little girl is so wise and the way she expresses herself. Ofcourse, she does have her childish moments, but those are normal moments, because even us as adults have our childish moments. I will continue on with the second part of this vacation reflection on my other blog. Welcome again to all my followers and potential followers.