My childhood was painful memories with the exception of the good memories I had with my maternal grandparents that finished raising me after my mom died. I hadn't thought of those horrible childhood memories in a while. I have kept my distance from certain people primarily the people the contributed to those painful childhood memories which we were my paternal grandmother, my sperm donor of a father, and my step grandpapa. It indirectly those horrible memories came back to me when that old lady that now looks like a little nice old lady that other people might think that she is the sweetest thing, but her and I know her dark side.. She sent an email to one of my sister and my sister confided in me, because she didn't know what to do, because this lady has stuff that belongs to my mother, and now she is acting the victim, and using my mother and God into the mail, just reading that email she sent my sister made my stomach churn, because of disgust and the audacity this lady had just even messaging my sister. In my mind, I go is this lady crazy or stupid, but she is neither. There is many things running through my mind and the main feeling I get out of all the feelings is RAGE!!! I want to tell her off for so many reasons. My mother is sacred to me and saw my mother suffering first hand, and the suffering she caused my siblings and me and now she wants to use on how my mother would be so sad for my sister being hateful towards her and I thought is this lady serious. I call her lady, because again she is old, but she is not even a lady. I am so going on and on about this lady, but I don't know what to think. I know I am not going to heaven at least in the religion I was raised, because you have to learn to forgive people even people that have created so much harm in your life, but for me I can not deem myself to forgive her or her son, because that old man that was one of the contributors of my childhood horrors is already where he needs to be six feet under so is responding to somebody else about his sins. I feel to send her an email to give her a piece of my mind, but at the same time I have to respect the fact that she didn't send it to me and to my sister, and it is her decision on how she wants to deal with this situation. I'm so glad that it was not me being in that situation, and my heart goes out to my sister and I do hope she does the right thing for her.
