In a year so many things can happen. Last year I celebrated reaching my lifetime goal, and this year other stuff are marking this year. My husband and I went to our first Zumba convention it was quite an experience for us. My husband enjoyed flying us all the way to Orlando and that was awesome we didn't have to deal with the crowds at the airport trying to get to the same place. I got to do various sessions which my favorite was the punk rock rebellion session with the awesome ZES Tamara Pitts. She was amazing to learn from even though at times I had to stop, because my knees didn't want to cooperate, but it was an amazing class experience and different style of music to put into my zumba list. I loved it, and I got trained in Aqua Zumba, which it was a great learning experience, but I primarily did it for my hubby since it is so hard to find a Licensed Aqua Zumba instructor to sub for his classes. I got to meet awesome people from different states, and countries. Our family had a major crushing blow when we found out that my mother-in-law was dying because she had terminal cancer and then she passed away. How do you prepare yourself for a lose so big like that? It is still hard to express the moment something like that happens and you want to be there for everybody. My mother-in-law and I had similarities as well as differences, but I know she loved me and cared about me and anything she did for me she did it with all the love in the world. I know she adored her grandchildren, and I know she would have enjoyed every moment of her grandchildren lives.This topic is a little hard to talk about or discuss about, because it is affecting so many other people that is hard to write it all down in one sentence or several at that. What I can say is Thank you so much for being an amazing mother to my husband and welcoming me into your family and loving your grandchildren. Thank you so much for all the stuff that you did for us, because we know that your heart was always in it. Thank you so much for being an amazing mother, mother-in-law, grandmother, daughter, friend, and sister.I might write more about it further on when the emotions aren't as raw to my family and me.I got another training in pound and I loved the training and the experience of learning something new and something that I can bring to the ladies I teach at the office.They are amazing ladies God gave me a blessing and I have to be thankful for this group of ladies, because sometimes I lose perspective and they just remind me of why I teach Zumba, but sometimes I not going to deny it sometimes I doubt myself and others around me. Are they telling me the truth or are they feathering me? I guess doubt myself at times, because sometimes I'm not confident and then other people tend to make me feel that way, because of the remarks that they bring up or just plain and simple their behavior. I want people to be honest with me and not scared that your going to hurt me, actually it hurts me more when you think your being nice to me by not telling me the truth or just not saying anything at all but try ways of avoiding me.I truly dearly appreciate the people that have faith in me and are authenticate in their feelings. I want to thank the ladies that entrust me with their classes for me to sub. Thank you for the support Moni and Hope you ladies are my rockstars. Missy my weight watcher leader as well as one of my Zumba instructor thank you for your motivation your an amazing person thank you so much ladies. Thank you for my morning workout group at the cansler y. I need to refocus myself, because my weight has gone up a little bit so I need to rethink everything and reevaluate stuff, because I don't want to go back to the same old patterns that are so comfortable to get back to. The hard times in our lives we have to reevaluate stuff so we don't lose track of the reasons we start certain things, and sound like I'm rambling. It is so many stuff going on in my mind that I want to express a portion of what is going on in my head. My oldest daughter is finishing high school in a couple of days and in January she will be starting college it is another step in the journey of her life and it is quite scary for me, because my little girl is not so little anymore.I know she will make the right decisions in her life and she will make mistakes along the way and I just have to be there for her when she wants me to be there.
