Rebuilding life back on track...

I have been slacking on certain areas of my life for so many reasons. Realistically, there is no exact reason the only person I can blame is the person I see in the mirror every day. Although at times I don't have the fortitude to deal with certain issues in my life, and I substitute those things with other things  that are probably just as bad or worse as the issue. I need to get my head straight get the strength to reach my light and my full potential. I am doing a great disservice to the people that love me and respect me, and I can not be a bad example for my children, because at least my oldest is looking up to me, and I don't want to give her wrong ideas to deal with issues you have to face them and deal with the emotions that come with it. I am super motivated to gaining my goal, and I pray to God to give me the strength not to deviate for any reason, and give me the strength to see the goal at hand and that is going to be hardwork, but it is not impossible to reach that light at the end of that tunnel.

Introvert and loving it...

In any social gathering I tend to be the quiet one or the one hiding in a corner somewhere, because realistically I don't do that well in social gatherings especially with people I don't know that well or at all. When I get put in that situation I usually have some type of anxiety. I was sheltered to much and I was mostly surrounded by family members, so my friends were slim pickings and some of the pickings were great and others were horrible that I've had some stomach pains for a while, but  for those stomach pains I learned something out of. Everything is a learning experience even the painful ones.I got married to an amazing and understanding husband, because he accepted me for who I was and who I am, there might be some changes but my essences is the same and the people that know me know that. My husband got a good opportunity for his career and I told him to take it, because it would improve our family lifestyle, but that meant moving to whole different state and away from my family. While I know it was scary I managed to be supportive towards my husband, and we finally moved to TN everything was new. New environment, new people, and different pace of life. One of the first impression of TN is a good place to raise a family. The first  year the only social interaction I had was with my husband, my four year old daughter, and the preschool teachers of my daughter. The second year we had our own house here in TN cementing that we were planning our roots here for our daughter and future offsprings.Cutting the story short it took me a while to have the friends that I have now, they are small group of women that I respect, admire, and love, and as well as my children they inspire me with their way of viewing life, love, and everything else. It took me a while to get the relationships I have cemented, because there were some bumps in the road to have the relationships that I have now and that I cherish with all my heart. It is hard for me to get to know people, because I'm really not a social butterfly, but God gave me an amazing gift that I got to meet this amazing women that I'm beyond words appreciative that I have this women in my life, because they welcomed me with open arms in their life and have given me so much even though they might not see it, but I do see it and feel it. This introvert girl will always be thankful to God,and my angels to have given me those amazing women as my close-net friends, because they are more their friends they are family at least to me.Many people can have a lot of friends but when you hide in the cloud of many people you forget the quality of that person, because there is so many people that you lose your eyesight and forget the importance of the quality not the quantity. So, at least being an introvert as worked in my favor, because I have people in my life that truly love me for who I am and what I stand for and I hope I do the same for them.. Those friends I love you guys, because you have given this introverted girl so much love, lessons of life, an open-mind.. Love ya ladies.. That is why I say INTROVERT And Loving it...