When things happen they come together don't they, but throughout this whole ordeal I have remained positive and keeping myself strong, so I keep the ones around me fine. Although believe it is kind of hard at times to always keep that sense that everything is fine, there are times I just want to break down and cry. First, my dad got sick and I had to take him to the hospital it ended up being he needed to have his gallbladder removed and they did and I did stayed in the hospital with him for almost a week in the most uncomfortable sit ever, but it was well worth it, because I know he was happy having me there and I was happy to make sure he was fine. Didn't sleep much in those days I was in the hospital, and on Friday I got into a small fender bender and I felt so stupid, because I really didn't see the car until I heard the thump in the back, and yesterday I had to take my husband to the hospital, because he tripped cutting the yard and shattered one of his bone in his left arm, and I all wanted to do is cry, because I felt all his pain and then they had to do X-rays on him and that was so painful hearing him cry in pain, because they need to position his arm, and now there is a high probability he will need to surgery in that arm. I feel so out of control right now, that I don't know how I can remain standing up without crying somewhere. I need to remain strong for the people that I love. This blog is more for my venting out so many stuff that I got stuck in my throat.
The key to being strong is this . . . when no one is around, go into the bathroom, shut the door and cry. Then say the "F" word at least 10 times. Really. It helps. It doesn't make the stuff go away but it will make you feel better about it.
ReplyDeleteTHanks tere, maybe I will try that.
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