Sunday, August 15, 2010

Old wounds resurface



I got somebody that I love very dearly go through a painful experience that I went through at one point in my life which is a miscarriage. I know how she is feeling right now, it feels like an abyss that you don't know how to get your way out of it. You have so many feelings running through you, especially when you had the illusion of expecting another child in your life, and for some reason it doesn't happen. I want to say to that person you are not alone and I love you, and while you and I have difference's of opinion my heart is with you in this very moment and always. I want you to always remember that Angel you lost as a beautiful memory and don't stay in the hurt and the pain, because it will consume you and surround yourself about the people that will give you the proper support. I love you with all my heart. I am also go to put something that I wrote in a Blog long time ago, about my little Angel that wasn't able to be born. If you don't want to talk about it at least write it out, and share with other people your experiences. I love you again. Here goes the Excerpt of one of my old blog that will stay with me always. "This is in dedication to my son John that is not with us. I know you weren;t given the chance to keep on growing, or the chance to take your first breath, so many first that you missed. I want you to always remember that I do carry you very deep in my heart, and I still remember you and I won't forget you. I wanted to see you grow and tell me mama, but we will see each other again. I LOVE U SWEETIE. MOMMY LOVES U..My sweet angel that is watching over us. I will not say goodbye to you or forget you, the only thing I can say while you were still here you made me the most happiest person in the world, and I will not remember you as a pain or a guilt, but as somebody that I loved with all my heart even with my own life I wanted you so very much, and your father as well. I just cry once in a while remembering you, but as one of those beautiful memories that I would have wished that it would have fruitified. Thank you for given me the time to feel you and know that you were there. I love you my son John Patrick Williams (RIP JAN 2004)."



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