Lost

I had some many stuff happen in my life that now I am super lost.. All the goals I had set myself I have not achieved, because I feel like I don't know what do with myself. I have gain and lost weight, pretty much you can call me yoyo girl, cause i there, but I just automatically gave up and I have gain more than I have in the past, and I feel unhappy with that, but at the same time I've just given up all together is that all the things that interest me before it doesn't.. It is like everyone has moved on, but I still stuck in the box, and there was an illusion that I was out of the box, but again I'm back in the box, and it give me at a little getaway from the box but it was temporary. I just want to know would I be able to get really get out of the box and I achieve that happiness of self-fulfilment. I want to be a productive person not just be here in this box all by myself, but every time I try to do it. It hurts to much physically and mentally. I just needed to vent out some my internal frustrations.