Broken

There are times you wonder if heartbreak is the only type of pain, and the loss of a family member, but what about the loss of a friendship that hurts as well to your very core. I broke up a friendship for reasons that was necessary due to the fact that many things can not be forgiven at least for me which was betrayal. Lying by omission and not letting me know or at least giving me a heads up and finding through different avenues. I believed in this individual and I trusted her even with my eyes closed, and I found the hard way that I put my admiration and trust to the wrong person. I am not saying I am perfect in the least, but I have to come value myself as a friend and I know what I bring to the table, and whoever are my friends know that I go far and beyond for my friends, and I trust my friends beyond anything unless they prove otherwise and that is the situation that happened with this friend. A couple of days ago I was even thinking that I was being too harsh with that individual, and I should not be that hard, because again I am not perfect what so ever, and I asked God to give me a sign to understand if I did the right thing, but God gave me a sign that turned my world upside down for the day. I almost lost an important friendship, because this friendship has brought so many positive changes in my life and view life in a different way. I do have a voice and I do matter and I need to stop letting people step on me. I am strong woman with so much to say. Again, I almost lost that important friendship, because of the individual I thought at one point a dear friend to me, and she indirectly  almost cost me another friendship, because of an indiscretion. Sometimes we have to think how we say things and who we confide our concerns too. I was in the cross fires of a conversation of two individuals. So, God I got your message believe me I got your message LOUD and CLEAR!!!